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Friday, March 21, 2008

RAHHHHH. sports day today. (sticks out middle finger) annoyed due to the hot weather, and the 1 hour late dismissal. anyway, congrats to jovina, mahavira and the rest of the classmates that got their awards. (: admires, cause i fucking hell can't do sports. wonders how come i can't run while my mum could in the past, half the cabinet is piled with her trophies. (eyes fall out)

back to the main point of the post today. can you remember the canings we got when we were young from our parents? i can remember it so damn well, its both physical and emotional hurt. but yet, when we grow up i realised a lot of things. like how one person can actually make you believe him/her and yet its all a fake. or rather, a lie. just when you start to treat him/her like your friend wholeheartedly, that person made you lost faith in him/her. or rather, you start doubting in every way you can. just by one action, one sentence or one word, it changes everything. yes, and im talking about fair-weather friends. that's not physical hurt, its the fucking emotional hurt. having them is like a habit in my secondary school life, and im used to it.

i trusted them, and i thought you were my true friends. and slowly, one by one you changed. and yes, asked me out when you needed help in studies. after quarreling with one of you guys, some of you turned your back to me. talked to me when you felt left out. am i the subsitute or what? and i actually considered you guys my friends, i believed in all of you. and what, throwing a fucking tantrum to me today uh. trying to pull those who i am talking to away from me. fuck you. if you are so unhappy about me talking to her or going near her, just come right to me and say it in my face. and not stabbing me indirectly. and you fucking hell know who you are.

you bloody hell dragged them with you during recess, lunch and even after school so that i wont go near to you "best" friend for that period of time. but after we are okay with each other, you blody hell tried to give me a hell time in school. how long have i known her compared to you, you think that you can seperate us just by doing all these? and even tried controlling her and can only be with you guys and not with others? where were you when she was upset or get into trouble, you just fucking hell walked away or tried to stay out of trouble, you call this friendship? or rather close friends? and you can just give one fucking excuse to clear this "misunderstanding".

fuck bitch. i had enough of you. i promised not to cause trouble just because she's my good friend, you hear me?

thanks elle and friends and baby for helping us ytd. (:

happy 4 months and 1 day. <3

❤yours sincerely.