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Monday, March 31, 2008

THESE HANDS HE MADE
words and music by Trevor Nerva & Julie Sim

for the CHIJ schools, the IJ girls.

❤yours sincerely.

changed my mind.
fourth artpiece: family.

❤yours sincerely.

pretend. that's what you have to master in order to survive in my world. or rather, to me, what i always do when im home. to make things better, to make-believe, to make joy and laughter, that's when pretend comes in. and im already used to it, even maybe, master it throughout the past 4 years of my life. you can't get everything you want. pretend is good. absoultely. what you see, is actually a false show. if there's a choice, i rather not exist in this world, the more you grow, the more you suffer. the more you know. the more you gets hurt.

and the message tone rings again.

get what i mean? just pretend, i figured out that's the best way afterall.

❤yours sincerely.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

i dont need any fucking comments on anything right now.

❤yours sincerely.

you know how i feel about it? everytime, i learnt to cherish the loved ones around me esp my family, you made me change my mind again. i know what you are doing behind us. i know. im not that dumb. everytime i thought of the times when im little, where you brought me out to shop and tried your best to do your part, watching out for me and whatsoever. i really appreciate that. and when he told me how upset you are when i totally ignored you for a period of time because you always complained to him about me not returning home by ten. i didn't have a curfew in the past, and after i realised what you have done and the way you are tying me to you it really made me mad. i felt guilty when he told me you are crying that's why i acknowledge you again. but whenever i have this feeling, you always break it. yes, you always do. you know what. im sick of checking on your messages and always finding out new things, which in the first place i know what i will see. i got a general idea of the whole thing. i even asked you about it, and you just end it with a two word answer. you lied to me in my face. hello. im 16 that time? i can tell. i know what you are doing behind our backs. i didn't tell him, maybe he knows it maybe he doesn't. i wanted to keep this to myself cause i dont want to break us up. dont give me stupid excuses if i confront you about it one day. cause in this, you are in the wrong. if you think that he cause this whole thing to start, you are wrong. there are other ways to overcome obstacles but not in this manner. i never went through this before but i know that its wrong. im disappointed in you, i truly am.

for now, i only want to care about my studies and my friends. and if, because of you, i can't get into the course i want so to pursue my dreams. i dont know what i will do. and to me, now, you dont have the right to tell me what is right or what is wrong. im happy with my boyfriend, and you are in no position to show me your displeasure about it whenever i go out with him. because you have already made me lose the trust i had in you for the past 16 years.

note: dont think otherwise if you guys dont know what is actually going on.

❤yours sincerely.

didn't went to school ytd. due to my high fever on thursday night. i guessed its due to the downpour on thursday afternoon, so exaggerating that the staircases seem to be having a waterfall. on rather, they were. its just flooding everywhere. and i almost fainted ytd afternoon on my way to get my canvas at orchard due to the fucking sun. (roll eyes) and lucky baby quickly brought me to shade and get a shroooms burger meal for me since i didn't touch foood since thursday. no appetite. but managed to eat a bit though.

spiderwick chronicles at cineleisure. not too bad uh. xD anyway i can't think of a subject for my 4th artpiece! i have't even complete my final draft yet. shall work on it later.

thanks everyone for their concern. (:

i hate fever pills, they are big and round and they always cause me to vomit because they are simply too huge for me to swallow.

❤yours sincerely.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

WANTED MADMAN

he draws circles around girls' nipples and tickles guys' armpit hair. BEWARE. if you see him, please contact the GREEEEENGLENDAGROUP. just call him earthquake-r and he will shut up. however, please contact us so that we can capture this dangerous creature as soon as possible.

❤yours sincerely.

guess what. i came home from the library and saw my house keys still dangling in the lock on the gate. what the fuck. i actually left it there for 3 whole hours. and it totally freaked me out. anyway, chooooo bugged me AGAIN to hand in f&n and i haven't complete it yet. boring.

and now is the time to insult samuel quah.
he is known as OCTOPUS QUAH.
he causes earthquakes with every step he walks.
he causes tsunami from the canal when he jumps.
he causes tsunami from the ocean when he runs.
he causes buildings to collapse when he falls down.
he looks like tickopek.
his actions are as retarded as his face.
his nostrils are as big as mandarin oranges.
he has huge breasts. (wow)
he is a rambutan.
he smells like dried cuttlefish in one way or another.

i love you octopus. xD

❤yours sincerely.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

enough said. (:

❤yours sincerely.

shall be a gooooodie girl and start on my f&n. (sigh) anyway, i came across nineteen minutes by jodi picoult in the library and i almost jumped. ha. finally i got a book to read. and it saves me 16 bucks from buying it. xD

i have learned not to play neopets during f&n lessons.
i have learned to hand in my project on time to save me from choooo's naggings.
last but not least,
i have learned to cherish all the people around me. (especially my friends)

life sucks, i know. we will always meet some people we dislike, and yet we can do nothing. that's when i learned to be nice to everyone. especially those we have quarrelled with before. cause i know, when we put a stop to our friendship over some silly things, we can actually lose them as our friends.... for the whole lifetime.

peace. (:

❤yours sincerely.

Monday, March 24, 2008

baby just gave me a website of games. its super cute and gave me the feeling of gunbound. but the game is so not like gunbound. HA. anyway, its a sundayyyyyyy. and im bored at home. and there's schoool tmr which i dread to go to. i hate going to school, yet again. shall play neopets again since i have nothing better to do.

im dying to read vanishing acts and nineteen minutes by jodi picoult. im out of books to read. -.-

❤yours sincerely.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

chooo just msged me about f&n project. asking me to submit to her via email. my brain juice is horribly limited now, and i can't possibly finish by today. -.- let me think, monday there will be a stupid easter hunt. should i go to school then? so we will waste time finding en egg to exchange for a kinder surprise. how wonderful.

thanks baby for being there for me, especially today. we had a great time today, and he knows how to make me laugh all the time. (: i love you.

❤yours sincerely.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

list out what have i done to HER. if its about yesterday, i took the video to show how retarded val is and showed it to her. i didn't even bother to look at HER. and did i say i wont delete? i showed val and she was laughing and val say delete. i said delete lor. DID I SAY I WONT DELETE? must SHE keep repeating delete leh delete leh over and over again? okay. now after this. what have i done to her that i shouldn't? tell me. list it out.

lunch with baby later. he shall see my happy face and i will start laughing hysterically to him later. i guess he will be confused.

❤yours sincerely.

Friday, March 21, 2008

RAHHHHH. sports day today. (sticks out middle finger) annoyed due to the hot weather, and the 1 hour late dismissal. anyway, congrats to jovina, mahavira and the rest of the classmates that got their awards. (: admires, cause i fucking hell can't do sports. wonders how come i can't run while my mum could in the past, half the cabinet is piled with her trophies. (eyes fall out)

back to the main point of the post today. can you remember the canings we got when we were young from our parents? i can remember it so damn well, its both physical and emotional hurt. but yet, when we grow up i realised a lot of things. like how one person can actually make you believe him/her and yet its all a fake. or rather, a lie. just when you start to treat him/her like your friend wholeheartedly, that person made you lost faith in him/her. or rather, you start doubting in every way you can. just by one action, one sentence or one word, it changes everything. yes, and im talking about fair-weather friends. that's not physical hurt, its the fucking emotional hurt. having them is like a habit in my secondary school life, and im used to it.

i trusted them, and i thought you were my true friends. and slowly, one by one you changed. and yes, asked me out when you needed help in studies. after quarreling with one of you guys, some of you turned your back to me. talked to me when you felt left out. am i the subsitute or what? and i actually considered you guys my friends, i believed in all of you. and what, throwing a fucking tantrum to me today uh. trying to pull those who i am talking to away from me. fuck you. if you are so unhappy about me talking to her or going near her, just come right to me and say it in my face. and not stabbing me indirectly. and you fucking hell know who you are.

you bloody hell dragged them with you during recess, lunch and even after school so that i wont go near to you "best" friend for that period of time. but after we are okay with each other, you blody hell tried to give me a hell time in school. how long have i known her compared to you, you think that you can seperate us just by doing all these? and even tried controlling her and can only be with you guys and not with others? where were you when she was upset or get into trouble, you just fucking hell walked away or tried to stay out of trouble, you call this friendship? or rather close friends? and you can just give one fucking excuse to clear this "misunderstanding".

fuck bitch. i had enough of you. i promised not to cause trouble just because she's my good friend, you hear me?

thanks elle and friends and baby for helping us ytd. (:

happy 4 months and 1 day. <3

❤yours sincerely.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

F&N project to be submitted by 5pm, and its not complete. -.- shall submit in late work, i hate the feeling of it. oh ya, our form teacher talked about unconditional love today. and i guessed what she said was quite true. (: and i seriously doubt that nowadays there are still unconditional love going around. or well, there is, but there are some that isn't. bahhhh. what am i talking about. -.-

anyway, shall proceed on to the f&n thingy. so packed with the dumbass project. and adam khoo's talk is like boringggggg, i mean when i saw the schedule. and it bloody hell costs 144 bucks.

thanks for everything today and im really glad and appreciated that you came to help us (: , but sorry for taking up your time too. oh. and thanks for everyone's help for the past few days too. (:

❤yours sincerely.

Monday, March 17, 2008

task analysis and research. fucking tedious project.
school's starting tomorrow too. im glad to be back in school but it sucks at the same time too. never ending assignments and tests. oh well, just hope that the o level chinese paper arrives quickly so that i can concentrate on my other main subjects.
anyway, shall continue with my reading on jodi picoult's my sister's keeper.

❤yours sincerely.

F&N project to be submitted to chooooooooo by monday 6pm.

❤yours sincerely.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

title: the Genie i love.

❤yours sincerely.

i found the book i needed. my sister's keeper by jodi picoult. its super nice. (: anyways, step up 2 kind of sucks. or rather it is. there's no storyline but the dance steps are nice. (: heh. i want to watch sky of love again! xD and i completed my artpiece. (: shall post it later. and i should get my new canvas soon.

to hazel. how would you know if the spammer is much more good looking than her unless you are the one. and i know you are, saying you are much more prettier than her? oh please, valerie is like much more better looking than you. and she didn't even said she is going to be the miss world 2008, where do you get that idea from? oh you know she will thats why you are trying to deny the fact that she is prettier than you? just plain jealous right? look at your pictures or rather look at yourself in the mirror, please stop hallucinating that you are gorgeous cause well, you are not. if you think you are that good, you wont need to bother what she blog about. did you fail your humanities? or rather picture inference, her shades doesn't cover 80% of her face. its like less than half of her face. its so obvious, i guess your minute eyes are causing you some vision difficulties. try tearing your eyelids apart and maybe you will see better. and a ten percent chance of being much more better looking than now. so you think that you are so close with jeremy, you are not afraid of anything and therefore cause trouble for valerie? because of yan tin and you are helping her out? but that was ages ago, are you a bit slow in this? or because you didnt dare to confront val in the past and now you dare cause you are close with him? hahaha. please, get a life. he's not that great in any way. just by being mean and throwing us nasty remarks? it didnt affect us, so stop strutting around in school as though you are the great almighty empress dowager. that tells everything you loser. (: and guess what the teacher says, a bad influence. (:

to jeremy teo. retaining is not a bad thing and if you are so good, you wont end up in that sucky jc.

❤yours sincerely.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

❤yours sincerely.

baby i love you. (:

❤yours sincerely.

sky of love is a blast. i love it so damn much and i cried much more than ps i love you though. its a much watch movie. anyways. janet's birthday party is cool. i mean the place. ha. and i kept eating chicken franks. since that's the only food which is cooked easily. oh wells, umbrellas were used for sheltering the pit. HAHAHA.

rain rain go away........ waffles! muahahahaha.

❤yours sincerely.

Monday, March 10, 2008

i think im paranoid.

❤yours sincerely.

great. the march holidays is finally here, oh and the parent teacher dialoge was quite okay. at least i passed every subject. (: glad that we made up too. and during the principal's talk, there's question and answer. and all the HOD was to lie through their teeth without blinking. when did they go the questions in the papers with us huh. and i mean go through one by one our weakness. liar. lie somemore. hate the teachers like fuck. except for some nice ones.

tomorrow's janet's birthday bbq too. (: got to wrap her present later. oh ya. baby and i are going out tmr too. even though we are broke. i will try to get some money. (:

❤yours sincerely.

Friday, March 7, 2008

okay. i actually thought of closing my blog temporarily for the time being since im so fucked up these few days. yes. many causes, many reasons, many problems. i cheered up after talking out some things im no happy with. so i shall look on the bright side. (janet dont sing that song)

so. yes. L file no. 15. fuck. out of stock in singapore. i wanted it so much and they bloody hell have stock coming in again. hope jov's grandma finds it in taiwan when she's off during the march holidays. *crosses fingers*

waiting for baby to get ready and have our lunch/dinner together. and i passed my physics. miracle.

i hate the school.

❤yours sincerely.

Monday, March 3, 2008

❤yours sincerely.

didn't manage to watch ps i love you ytd due to tickets being sold out. instead, we caught the leap years. its uber nice and touching. MUST WATCH. (: oh. i want to watch sky of love too, a japan love story. the preview is quite touching, and also confusing. so i shall catch it on friday. heh. and monday i shall catch ps i love you. (:

oh and im so in love with the shop: made with love. its wonderful inside with all the extremely nice papers that you can use it for your graphic designing etc. and the most wonderful is the beautiful cupcakes! and its only $3.50 for one each. (:

mum's buying oven for me later. heh.

he will be as handsome as tom cruise, fights like jackie chan and will be as rich as the sultan in brunei.

❤yours sincerely.

Sunday, March 2, 2008

after making a visit to arielle's blog, L is indeed better looking in the movie. HIS EYELINER AND HAIR. oh great. i kept forgetting to buy my new eyeliner.

❤yours sincerely.

i finally finished my research. after doing from 12am to 4am + in the morning and woke up at 7.45am again to carry on. mummy was quite shocked to see me lying on the computer table early in the morning, thinking i didn't slept last night. but i did. 3 hours. fuck that research. i can't be bothered anymore. i only managed to do up to half of page 7. and had just submitted.

my shoulder is aching like fuck now. shall go sleep a while before meeting baby. (:

❤yours sincerely.

Saturday, March 1, 2008

fuck. its like 3:27am in the morning and i have only completed 2 pages of my research. i need 8-12 pages. what the fuck.

❤yours sincerely.

common test is finally over! and im happy about it, like who dont. but. there's still this fucking f&n project research to be completed and submit to chooooo by saturday 12pm. hurhur. i can just forget about sleeping in my comfy bed early today.

fucking shop sold me the charger for my mp4 and guranteed that it will charge, but after charging last night, its NOT CHARGED AT ALL. and guess what, i got a thumbdrive in exchange and there goes my happiness of getting a charger like finally. im getting sick of charging it through the computer. but oh wells, i need a thumbdrive SPECIALLY for f&n anyway.

just occured to me that raffles design institute open house is tmr, im thinking if i should go. but i want to watch ps i love you. -.- anyway. police are like man hunting now? please bomb my school before getting back to your cell in prison. without we STUDENTS in it. (:

im thinking about sunflowers and daisies now.

❤yours sincerely.